The day this happened, I wasn’t even aware of it until noon. The Hindu didn’t even care to inform me! that my article was published in the Open Page of his national daily. I too wasn’t well(same fuckin migraine pain :-/) and planned to read the newspaper with the evening tea (Now, I know that this sounds creepy, but reading newspaper with tea definitely add splashing flavors to both!). Anyway, I came to know after I was tagged about the post by one of my friend and a classmate. And I find it worth sharing the overabundance of diverse sensations that I felt on that day.
Phase-1: “The one with the Breath-Taking” – I was astonished to see that they really printed it, the feeling was really really great and was a moment of being proud of myself, getting my article published in the paper which I considered most esteemed was surely one thing I could not get when I wished!!. It took me some time to absorb the feeling, before I jumped out of the bed shouting, to show the paper to my family. They didn’t even give it a read, they were just so happy of the fact that I got something published…
Phase-2: “The one with the Flooded Mailbox” – As a regular reader of The Hindu, I had read many great articles in the open page which comes every Sunday in place of the editorials, and I always thought that who would have time to compliment, criticize, appreciate, or even threat! the people who wrote in the open page, people would just savior great variety of thought that was part of this page. But I was proved wrong when I opened my inbox, the day my article was published. For once I refreshed my browser page! after seeing 150 unread emails in my inbox and counting!. Sure I would have manged to get 150 spams in a single day, but these many legitimate mails, I really never thought off 😀 . Some people wanted to prove me so wrong that they compiled arguments in multiple pages and sent it as attachments, some people who were in support did the same to show that I am not alone on the other side of the line.
Phase 3: “The Tough one” – Reading these mails were really different, these had the mix of love, appreciation to come up and speak of the other views and to give voice to people who thought on the same lines… while it was also the time for few words of hate, criticism, cynicism, and harsh words from some others. That day really took me through the phase (though for a little time) which every journalist/columnist/writer in the world goes through. Hats off to all of you out there for being so strong to be able to do it everyday. I thanked everyone who took some time to write me, for their genuine, debatable, and really great suggestions, I was really proud that we have such great people out there and I was getting a chance to share words with them. Though I was insanely happy to see that there are others out there who think that my points forms the other part of the arguments, or raises some legitimate arguments. I do also appreciate and thank the others who told me the other side of the argument in humble words. It was when I read some mails with such cynical feelings for me, or when some criticized me for even expressing my views in open, or when some threatened me for doing this ever again, which blew the hell out of me !!!!
Phase 4: “The one where I thank” – It was time when I was sending a mail of thanks to all whose who mailed their views to me or when I was explaining some points asked to me, or when I was debating with some who was on the other side of the debate. I have never mailed to so many people individually, so that day I set a personal record to send maximum number of mails in one single day. I tried my best to answer to as many as possible and to anyone which were in the favor of continuing the debate, or till the point where I was able to convince some that my side has validity too. 🙂
Phase 5: “The Special Ones” – These one were like icing on the cake and that too one of my favorite. I got words of appreciation as well as criticism(but these one were really humble and didn’t just used anything cynical just to oppose me) for my article from some great industrialists, from few cooperate houses, from civil servants, teachers, professors, doctors, lawyers, students………….. These ones really carried away all those fear that was wandering over me once I read the few which threatened to harm me (they didn’t harm, but surely took all my appetite for lunch or a sound sleep that afternoon :P).
It has been months since my last post, but there was this little reason behind this. I really had spent a lot of time on the last post which got published in the Hindu, which did set a benchmark for what I usually write (or will write), and I would scrap anything I write as it would stand nowhere in front of it. However I convinced myself that I would not be able to improve in a day or two, but only if I write more frequently then I ever had until I reach the yardstick I fixed for myself.
PS: I would like to apologize for a mistake in the published article where it says that ” I was in government service for long”, this was actually meant to be like “I was a part of government process to get a service for long”. (I had sent the revised version of the article to the hindu before it was published but don’t know what’s the procedure at their end to handle such cases!)